laying in the shower
water spraying from the head
onto my knees
and thighs
i am still the same as i have always been
motivation hasn’t gotten easier to latch
onto. i am still a late sleeper
this is the first time i’ve washed my self in a week
i still jack off

i have a beard now,
my slack can be measured
in stray hairs. when i do
shave i always miss
something wearisome
days are occurring too often
too quickly
and the orgasms
aren’t as fun

as they used to be