some-one stitched a monkey on
a bathtowel that hangs
from the railing on my shower
door some -
where i have never seen a
place i don’t know
what life is like
there existence is foreign
alien
separate
not unlike what
life is like here

i take my grandmother
shopping once a week usually
Saturdays we pile things into
my car (food without value
and my cousin in Manhattan
won’t make it past
the weekend his bed in a hospital
might be empty sooner
- nothing -
is going to happen to him
harsh nothing
its everywhere
inside me in what i project
outside me)
alien in/to
twenty years
of ex -
perience -
is-tense

one tiny piece of shit
floats glancing back at
the monkey the railing the shower the
place i don’t know